Sunday, August 31, 2008

Sunday Notes

Faith draws the poison from every grief, takes the sting from every loss, and quenches the fire of every pain, and only faith can do it.
Jeffrey R. Holland

All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Our Creator would never have made such lovely days, and given us the deep hearts to enjoy them, above and beyond all thought, unless we were meant to be immortal.
Nathaniel Hawthorne

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired.
Mother Teresa

Saturday, August 30, 2008

BRaZiLiaN FeSTiVaL 2008 - SLC

Today was the annual Utah Brazilian Festival. This year it was held at The Gateway in Salt Lake City. Food, various Brazilian trinkets for purchase, more food, Capoeira, live music and dancing. It was great fun. Blue, green and yellow was everywhere! Brazilians have such great homeland pride and they carry it with them all over the world!

On our way!


At the festival -


Kip and Bethany - both speakers and lovers of the enchanting language. Bethany claims Rio as her second home...I follow close behind.


I ran into a few friends...Simpkins being one of those!


Kids cooling off.




Who would have thought that I would have ran into my old MTC professor from Brasil. Dancing a little Samba - trying to dance a little Samba. Ha.

Sports Vicariously

So...Fall is on the verge of hitting me - and in years past that meant not only jackets (adore a good jacket), and the rich smell of forest decay, but college football. However, the past few years have been different and within the last year I have figured it out. Finally. And I don't mind admitting it.

I am not as much of a sports fan as I thought I was - or maybe as I once was.

BYU football starts today. And even though I am more than likely going to miss the game...I somehow do not mind.

You see - most of my life I have been a sports fan through others...and because of others. BYU football has been so dear to me most of my life because of my dad. The D-backs were my team because of Tressa (she's a sports stats nut - absolutely hilarious) - the Mariners? Well - Stephanie JB took me that time...and the Jayhawks won my heart because of my older brother.

Red Sox or Yankees you ask? Mets. Mets because of Natalie.

What I have discovered is that I am an athletics enthusiast. I thoroughly enjoy sports of all types and enjoy watching, playing, and cheering. (Minus NFL). But when it comes right down to it - I don't have a team, MY TEAM, that I follow closely or pledge allegiance or my life to.

And that's okay. I don't mind.

I'm sure I'll catch a game or two this fall of BYU Football, on TV or in person - I'll cheer, and clap, and boo - but if they lose, well, it won't ruin my day let's just say. Good game and better luck next time.

Friday, August 29, 2008

A few years ago...

"You two would be perfect for each other!"

Oh gosh, I had heard that before -

"I actually have three guys for you...one is a news reporter is AZ (But, I don't want to live in Arizona!), one is in the Navy (even better), and the other one is local, just your fit."

Oh great. I had had enough blind dates to last me the rest of the year (or my life) and really was not looking for any more, please. Just the phrase "blind date" puts me in a bad mood.

"Can I give them your email?"

"Sure." Why, why, why!?

Weeks go by. "Local Boy" emails.

We exchange a few emails.....he talks about himself, small talk for a bit - back and forth....never asking to meet up - or anything of the like.

Fine with me.

He then asks for my number. Okay. xxx.xxx.xxxx.

Shortly afterward I receive a text. (What is this?! We go from emailing to texting? What progress!)

I was unacceptably out of patience that day. (Rarely is that a good thing for me... regrets usually follow).

My phone works too. I text in reply - casting out a sardonic tone. (Hmm, that was rude of me).

Seconds pass and my phone starts ringing.

"Hello?"

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Okay - so no one ever told me he was mostly deaf! Boy did I feel stupid, low, and insensitive.

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We chatted for a little while, again - never setting something up - I think he might have mentioned getting ice cream, though. "I'm sorry, I can't eat ice cream." (Oh wow - I am sounding really lame by now. Please can I disappear?)

We never met. Comically enough.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Sunday Notes

It is only by yielding to God that we can begin to realize His will for us. And if we truly trust God, why not yield to His loving omniscience? After all, He knows us and our possibilities much better than do we.
Neal A. Maxwell

That's not why I pray, Harry. I pray because I can't help myself. I pray because I'm helpless. I pray because the need flows out of me all the time, waking and sleeping. It doesn't change God, it changes me.
C.S. Lewis in Shadowlands

Reputation is what men and women think of us; character is what God and angels know of us.
Thomas Paine

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Summer of Weddings


Summer of 2008 was the summer of weddings! It seemed like there was always some big event to be getting ready for...a sister, a cousin, a best friend, a close family friend, another cousin, a client...and another cousin coming up this December. I do love weddings - even among all the stress that comes with being involved. Congrats to all!

Below are pictures - some pictures - from Kimberly's wedding (one of my beloved sisters). I will post more when they become available - esp. of Kim and Kev!

Almost ready for the family picture. KK - love the sun-glasses!


Love the cake - Love the flowers.


A glimpse of the bride.


A highlight conversation for the evening - Deg, your mom rocks.


They are adorable. A handful of my nieces and nephews.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

JK

It was a joke. That roller coaster picture...yeah, I was joking.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

I LOVE

I love Thursdays.

I love August evenings, and a deck with a view.

I love the Cafe Rio beef salad (minus tortilla, clearly).

I love limes (and have squeezed fresh lime on my arms before for fragrance).

I love that the Hakes just called and need me on site next week.

I love the Olympics...

I love the Olympics - and I really think that the nation should just shut down for these few weeks so everyone can focus on the events at hand - and not have to TiVo everything. We should just all have big parties - big screens everywhere - on every city block so we can all gather to laugh, cry, scream, gasp, clap, jump up and down and whatever else you like to do during the Olympics. Such enthusiasm!

Well - I am off to park myself in front of the TV. Yep - such a rarity...but necessity is just that.

One of my favorite Olympic past times...Derek Redmond. Who doesn't remember crying over this one? Man - I just watched it again and yep...cried. Ha.


`For those who know and love Kara...you will love this post - it's so her!

A Visit with a Friend: A Reflection on the Bathroom Floor

"Hey, there's broken glass all over your bathroom floor!"

"I know."

"Can I clean it up for you?"

"No, I'll get it. Thanks."

It looked as if it had been there longer than just a day.

"Uh, how long has it been here?"

"Oh - I don't know...since last week or so."

We had just finished a lengthy in-depth conversation discussing the past 8 months, and as I looked down at the shattered glass I realized how too closely this symbolized her life at this time. It was broken, she was broken...and the pieces were left lying on the floor...

"Well, you should clean it up - you might cut yourself."

She smiled slightly..."Too late."

"What was it from?"

"A candle."

The metaphor was a depressing one: Her light had gone out...and what held it - had broken.

She was sitting on the couch, lifeless. "I think I had my first real anxiety attack last night. I mean, this summer was pretty stressful, and I certainly had my moments - but last night...I couldn't sleep and I couldn't breath. I couldn't breath - my heart kept beating faster and faster, throughout the entire night. I couldn't calm it. I tried. I held it, but that didn't help. I didn't sleep much."

I sat down next to her and looked into her melancholy eyes, "Hey, it's going to be okay. You're going to be okay. Some things in life break, they...shatter - and they aren't meant to be put back together, exactly as they were. But you can't just leave the pieces lying around forever. It's damaging. You need to clean them up."

"I'm tired. I'm tired of being tired, I'm tired of crying, I'm tired of me..." her voice trailed off.

"I know. It's so hard. It can be so hard. Come here." I pulled her in close. And for a while we just sat there, in silence. There wasn't anything that needed to be said.

"You'll make it. You will. Now, let's go clean up that broken glass, together."

"And then let's get something to eat - I'm starving."

I laughed, "Deal."

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

One should always be prepared to live out of ones car.

Case in point:

I am at work late tonight in PC. Therefore, I am just going to sleep here. One spot in 7 acres to choose from.

I have handy (as everyone should in their trunk):
A sleeping bag
A cushion to a folding chair that will now function as a pillow
A warm, way over-sized jacket from a friend that I was going to take to DI (No, I wasn't going to take my friend to DI - just the jacket...although some of my friends I might consider...)
Deodorant...hullo.
Toothbrush
and Toothpaste...that gets another hullo.
I-pod - although I won't be listening to it. I need to hear what's going on around me in case any moose decide it's a sleepover party or something. Besides - I AM IN NATURE! Laptop is still pushing it...can I go a day with out it? I look forward to the day.
A book, cause it's light enough to read...
Clorox wipes (my feet are happy!).
Lip gloss (my lips will be happy!).
A bunch of rainbow cloth torn into strips - I've tied them around my neck for warmth.
and a pretty good imagination if I want to seriously scare myself...but I'll get along just fine.

Things I WISH I had had handy:
A tarp - to put by bag on.
A guitar - cause it's light enough to play.
Make-up for the morrow? Naw - overrated. BESIDES...I have worked with these people up here for a good while now...we all know each other! But they are all men! you say. Yeah so? - they are all mostly married men! I say. And the few who aren't?... well ...
Good socks.
Something to eat in the morning.
A telescope.

Oh - and conveniently there is an "outhouse" on site for the time being. So hey! I am all taken care of. Hand sanitizer was even full!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

3 CHiNeSe PRoVeRBS

A bird does not sing because it has an answer. It sings because it has a song

A book is like a garden carried in the pocket

A gem is not polished without rubbing, nor a man perfected without trials

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After watching the opening ceremonies for the 2008 Summer Olympics, my interest in China has heightened. Growing up, Asia never was a place that captured my heart completely. I was always stuck in Africa and Europe. But after a bit of exposure to the culture and countryside, this part of the world definitely has something to offer.

I thought back to last January, when my inquiries into Asia started to grow as I befriended some people from China and Thailand. I also had met a lady back in January who had studied garden design in Japan and just hearing her talk about the teaching methods got me thinking twice about this culture, and twice about gardens and their purpose.

I remember studying Japanese and Chinese art as an eight-grader and producing some of my own, black and white paintings of bamboo, birds, fish, and landscapes that were defined by dramatic limestone formations rising out of rivers and lakes. The strokes were so simple, and yet, created vibrant life. I remember how excited I was at my first, real bamboo paint brush - I cared for that thing like it was a precious jewel. I wonder if I still have it?

Then I am taken back to my violin days when the Suzuki series was like a bible - almost every time I practiced I opened one of those books, looked at the notes in front front of me, and went for it. I always felt so accomplished if I could get through a piece in tune, including all the technicalities and artistries that comes with violin playing, and Suzuki no less. I never was a soloist, but on some days, as I stood in the living room, there were hundreds of people there listening to me play - I always played better on those days.

Yes, I am excited for the Olympics...

Friday, August 08, 2008

(embarassing)

I play the banjo...well - used to anyway. It's been a while, unfortunately...and I don't know the names of the strings. It's been 8 years since I started playing...and I don't know the names of the strings. I have toured Europe, played in a band, and have spent hours and hours practicing...and I don't know the names of the strings. My first time playing with Sassafras, I had to tune my banjo...I had a tuner, but since I didn't know the notes, it was useless. I had to sneak out in the hall - call home - have them google it or something like that - so that I could tune my banjo...because I didn't know the names of the strings.

I still don't know the names of the strings....yeah - I would say that's embarrassing - but I can still play. I think I'll spend this weekend learning the names of my strings.

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Once I was invited to West Point Academy to attend a gala. Fancy green and black dress, fancy dinner, fancy date in a uniform - the whole affair was quite...well - fancy!

I was staying at a host family's house - and they were all out for the night, so I was there alone to get myself ready for the evening. It was then I realized that I had left my deodorant in New York City at my friends apartment. Oh, dear. I wasn't about to go rummaging through a stranger's house to borrow some deodorant. Although I think I did casually look around....hoping, hoping. Dur.

I will just tell you that MAC powder does not function very well as an antiperspirant. Ha!

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On the theme of formal dinners and dances - Junior Year - Prom. Beautiful emerald green dress, French twist, lovely time.

Our group of 6 or 7 couples had dined at a certain residence in Orem. And this is not just any residence - but an amazingly gorgeous home. (Those who went to High School with me know which house I am talking about).

Professional pictures taken, seven-something-course meal finished...we were out the door and on our way to the dance.

I needed to use the restroom before we made a final exit. Everyone else had left the house and so it was just myself and my date in the house. And, I, uh....well - the toilet over-flowed....really overflowed. I had to lift up my dress skirt and tiptoe out. What was I going to do now!? As I ashamedly told my date what had happened...he remarked that they had someone to take care of it...and escorted me out the door.

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I still don't know what happened...(Sorry J.B.)

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I once ate a whole loaf of white bread all by myself - and it was a big, long, white loaf. Did I mention it was in one sitting...ONE sitting. Yeah...

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Is it Thursday?

Yeah? That's what people are telling me. For the past few weeks I have had to ask what day it was - really. Time has lost its minutes - and I am not sure if it cares or not, I forgot to ask. Maybe it just didn't notice. I think maybe that would be like losing it's mind.

2 THiNGS



Two things I am trying to preparing myself to be excited for...


Wednesday, August 06, 2008

A WoRD FoR THe WaLL

QuiXoTiC:

Pronunciation:
\kwik-ˈsä-tik\
Function:
adjective
Etymology:
Don Quixote
Date:
1718

1: foolishly impractical especially in the pursuit of ideals; especially :marked by rash lofty romantic ideas or extravagantly chivalrous action 2:capricious, unpredictable

synonyms see imaginary
— quix·ot·i·cal \-ti-kəl\ adjective
— quix·ot·i·cal·ly \-ti-k(ə-)lē\ adverb

Monday, August 04, 2008

adventuring

This late summer/fall I am all about adventuring. If any of the following items intrigue any of you blog readers...do tell. Let's go!

*Spend an early evening in the Salt Lake City Library reading the prologue to "A Death in the Family."
*Visit the Thanksgiving Point Gardens...they must be getting real good this time of year.
*Visit the Red Butte Gardens.
*Venture out to the Spiral Jetty and take a picture.
*Chase a rainbow.
*Sunday evenings in September, October and November the Cathedral of the Madeleine has organ performances open to the public. You have better believe that I am there. And they must have some choral performances sometime...which would be even more interesting to myself.
*Hike Ensign Peak.
*The Alpine Loop.
*Bake a Quiche.
*Visit the the Living Planet Aquarium.
*Look at the night sky through a telescope to locate a constellation that I have not yet discovered. Maybe build my own? Maybe not. Who has a telescope?
*Eat lunch on a RR track.
*Hike Stewart Falls.
*Watch Chariots of Fire...hullo...this should happen prior Olympics - or at least during.
*? Some adventures are just best on the fly...

Sunday, August 03, 2008

9 lives

If I were to live 9 more lives...

...I would be an artist. I do consider my job as artistic. But I am speaking of pure fine art - painting, sculpture, pencil, charcoal...my subject matter would be everyday life situations that people can really relate to - something that would also make them stop and contemplate. Someday, in my house, I am going to have an entire wall dedicated to the practice of abstract art. I shall paint it, always coming up with different methods...arrows - rag throwing, spaghetti noodles, leaves, me. And every so often I shall repaint it, always using a different method. A revolving art piece.

...I would be a musician. Location: Seattle or Portland. I would practice hours and hours every day - and I would have 5 instruments that I was proficient on. What five? Well, the violin, the cello, the hammered dulcimer, the guitar, and the piano. What about banjo? That one - I would be almost proficient on, which would be good enough...genres...would vary. There are too many good ones to choose from. But I would be very good. Actually, I would really like to be a drummer in a band. So I guess that's 7 instruments. Wind-surfing would be my hobby of choice and the seafood would be oh-so-good.

...I would be a professional dancer: ballet, tap, hip hop and Irish. I would live in NYC - Spanish Harlem. I would make enough to get by and then some...but not too fancy, no.

...I would speak 7 different languages. Portuguese, French, Italian, German, Greek, Hebrew, and Afrikaans and/or Swahili. English not included, but I would also speak English. Maybe I should switch out Greek for Mandarin Chinese or Arabic...but I don't know.

...I would be a secretary (with a heavy southern accent) for some hoity-toity, big-wig member of the White House. They would give me really great bonuses because of my never-ending, ridiculous dedication - one at the end of the year, and one for my birthday. Yes!

...I would be a rancher. Out on the range, probably in Texas where everything is big, including my ranch house that would be so southwestern in style, in a white-wash kind of way, with a Mexican twist...cowboy up! Every weekend we would have fiestas with homemade tortillas and salsa with chicken cooked over the fire. We would laugh and relax and enjoy one another's company after a hard weeks work. Come on over and kick your feet up! Everyone is always invited. Limes and cilantro would definitely be included in the mix, I love limes.

...I would be an Olympic athlete. Winter Olympics - I would be a figure skater, naturally. (I am not a good ice skater). I would skate to Anna and the King track 2 for the short program and Gymnopedie No. 1 for the long program. I would have a coastal house (board and batten) somewhere back east, a beach house (more contemporary) in San Diego, and a mountain home (but not really UP in the mountains) in Utah - close to family. Of course I would still need to have a real profession...or maybe just a real husband (as opposed to a fake one?) with a real high-paying job. Gosh - in this life it seems that I am quite spoiled. 3 houses? Who needs 3 houses?

...I would be lost in the East African forests. It would all begin in Brazil where I would be kidnapped and taken by boat to some East coast region in Africa. There I would be traded for diamonds to some unheard of tribe. Because of my pale skin, blue eyes and red-hair they would mistake me for a goddess and I would become a part of their tribe. I would spend a total of 3 years with them - in which time I would learn their language and teach them the gospel. Some of their traditions would already reflect the inner workings of the teachings of Christ. Eventually I would be discovered by some National Geographic on-assignment team and then a documentary would incur...after all, they would have cameras and all of their other equipment - convenient. Upon being discovered, I would then be able to return home - to the states. I would depart by helicopter and...I would wear traditional tribal clothing home...a long candle-white dress, very plain and simple - a stiffer fabric with colorful stitchings on the edges. It would be a tearful parting, knowing that I would probably never see these people again. So dramatic. I would then join the on-assignment team for NG and become one of their writers.

...I would be a singer, an opera singer. Probably an alto - but a high alto. I love a good aria. I would also spend much time in 3rd world countries directing humanitarian projects that focused on heath care and the basic necessities of life. We would also have various activities for the people so that they could develop skills. One area of focus and reprieve from everyday worries would involved music - probably a choir-type situation. We would put on small performances for the locals and then become known world-wide. We would record a cd - and sell millions of copies. All proceeds would go to further the cause of our humanitarian efforts.

Saturday, August 02, 2008

FM-SLC

So this mid-morning I walked the Farmers Market at Pioneer Park, SLC.

And since I am a fan of the word "wild" at this particular time - I will say it was wildly fantastic. Definitely something that could become a weekly ritual for this individual.

I loved the movement, I loved the diversity, I loved the vegetables and fruit being sold, I loved the live music, and wish I had had some George Washington's in my pocket to drop into the guitar cases of all of those hopeful musicians.

I loved talking to people I had never talked to before, as if we were next door neighbors. I loved that there was one event at one place that brought hundreds of walks of life together for a moment in time. People were enjoying themselves, including myself.

On the way back to my car I met a man on the street from Alberta, Canada - he was looking for the Farmers Market...1 block up and 1 block over...it's great, you're going to love it! As we parted he muttered a question. "What was that?" - He hesitated just a moment and after the 3rd time I finally heard him clearly..."do they have weed over there?" "That, I don't know."

Next week I am going to hula hoop.

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I had parked on Rio Grande - adjacent to the shelter and didn't realize it until I had gotten out of my car and was walking, walking...I passed a group of people who had found refuge on the sidewalk, against a brick building. They were avoiding the hot summer sun. They asked me if I would like to share some shade. Thank you.

I was walking towards the Gateway to peruse the windows and racks, but as I had looked into the eyes of those people without a bed, without a home, it derailed any shopping that I might have done (minus my cat book). I have plenty right now - I should be satisfied with what I have, which could be too much?

The world (and I do not exclude myself) seems to be so absorbed by "lifestyle" and spending time, effort, and money creating and building their lifestyle. I will think about this idea further - there definitely is something great about creating a life - and creating a living space that is pleasing and a delight to experience. I do think that we were meant to create and improve upon our conditions and situations. Yes. But there's some point where it needs to take a back seat...what's our focus? What's our motive? What's our drive in life.....what about all those that surround us that are our brothers and suffering? Yeah, I will think about this idea further before continuing...I need time to process...after seeing those people today, I need some time to process.

The Color Kittens

Wandering through the kids section at Barnes and Noble and all of the sudden I became 7 again...maybe 6. I am not sure.

I came across a book, one of my favorites, from my childhood that took me by a delightful surprise, because naturally - I had forgotten all about it.


Brush and Hush are kittens that love to paint - they love colors (their favorite being green) - and discover that with red, blue and yellow - they can create all the colors in the world. It's a charming, simple book filled with great imagination, great illustrations, and great text. One of my favorite lines are, "The sky was wild with sunshine."

One more book in my wild library for my future wild bookcase.