Sans Makeup

Today it was either eat breakfast or finish putting on my makeup.

I diligently chose to eat my breakfast - steamed vegetables at that. With some salmon chunks.

I did put powder, blush and lip color on  - so I wasn't completely undone. But I did surprise my classmates as apparently I look very different without it. But not in a bad way - necessarily.

Yes, I got reactions which ranged from saying how great I looked, so refreshed, etc., to another pulling me aside and asking me if I was feeling well, that I indeed did not look well.

Looking well.

Apparently I have not been looking well for some time because I am being asked too many times if I am feeling well, if I am sad - or how am I doing, always asked with some underlying tone of suspicion.

I am...fine?

I don't know. How about - I am in pain? Yeah - I don't feel well? I am tired a lot of the time? Actually I feel fine, but my fine is your unwell?

One day when I first arrived to school I walked to the office to sign in and the first thing the director says is, "Lorien, are you well?" In that suspicious tone of voice. The principal of the school then retorted in a very proper elderly Englishwoman way..."Why shouldn't she be well!?" (Think Pride and Prejudice..."Wink at you, child? Why should I wink at my own daughter, pray?")

Anyway - I haven't been feeling well all of the time, just like how it was back home and most days my back is in constant pain. Non-stop - which is unlike back home. But I guess people can tell...but I still think it's weird. I think it's because I get lost in thought and have a serious look on my face. But I need to get lost in thought if I am going to design properly.

Next time I am asked if I am feeling well I am going to ask them why they think I am not well, instead of reassuring them that I am quite well.

Until then, I'll keep eating veggies for breakfast. 

Happy in London

I think this could be the title for every post!

Even though there have been frustrating times and tears shed since I got here - I really have been very happy every single day. I have this hovering of joy and a lightness that accompanies me regularly.

And it's wonderful.

I have nothing particular to say right now - it's the end of the week. A Friday night - I am in my flat typing typing (I updated my other blog) - and catching up with family. I am in a good place with my studies and will be well-prepared for next week come Monday morning.

The cold-flu thing that was trying to take me down didn't - I kept up with my Doterra oil regime and that seemed to help! One drop of OnGuard in the mouth regularly will keep me up all winter I do believe.

Well - check out my other blog to get some good reading....

My Mood Board

Q&A: What's Your Favorite Part About The Course Work?

Royal Academy of Arts: Australia

Otherwise, I will be back shortly!

Xoxo

Lazy Morning

I am having a lazy morning - a highly needed and I'll add, well-deserved, lazy morning!

We finished D1 (Design 1) a few weeks ago, we are full-steam-ahead into D2, and all is going well though I have been exhausted. I was so worn out at the end of Monday, that my instructor told me to take the day off Tuesday and go somewhere.

But I didn't go anywhere. Well, I did. I went back to school. :)

This morning I am feeling particularly mentally sound and refreshed, though my list of things to do and learn and study for school is still piled high, which can be taxing. But I can handle it.

I have increasingly been in need of disconnecting from my life back in Utah. Aside from keeping in touch with my family, it is proving difficult to maintain contact and swap stories with those back home. And when I do try to keep up, I feel so divided that my mind hurts. I feel I need to throw myself into London, and become saturated with these waters (whatever "these waters" are, I don't know - that's just the imagery that came to mind).

I also feel I will be able to write and blog more effectively if I center my entire self here. And in a way, that is a good method of keeping in touch with others...

Well, my lazy morning has ended! Time to shower, do some laundry, clean, purchase a train ticket - then head to the school to work on plant I.D.!

Wrong Roads

This is a valuable message to hear and remember. Plus Elder Holland is the Boss.

Oh yeah - three good things about my day...

...since I have a humdrum attitude right now I am going to write three good things about my day:

1) Keanan stopped by this morning before school to drop off all the goods my family had gathered to send me. Thank you!
2) Which means I can brush my teeth with Crest again!!
3) I finished my homework which is due tomorrow.

Headache

So I was going to do a fantastic post on the 3rd of November to celebrate my two month mark of being in London.

But I have been tired and tried and now I have a horrible headache - so no such post was or is being written....maybe on December 3rd I'll feel a little more up to it.

I am just so tired.